Back in the Game...
I am glad to continue blogging after another respite. The loss of one of my dearest friends, Jill Honer, left me paralyzed (emotionally/physically) for a time...still struggling. However, with the help of my husband Pete, my children, my family and other close friends (especially Nelda), I am coping better. I do have faith that she is with Our Good God, but I suppose I have been grieving for myself, for her family, and for the world as the mold used to shape and form that awesome young women is in short supply now days. Therefore, In my eyes, at least for now, the sun is just a bit dimmer, the world a bit darker, and music a bit duller. I know without a doubt that Jill would scold me ferociously for my outlook, but I will work through it, not only for her, but for my loved ones and myself. Obviously, God has more work for the rest of us, and I need to get in gear to follow HIS call to service.
My inspiration and origination of this blog, Nelda Sosa is still fighting THE GOOD FIGHT! Nelda's Strength, Faith, Selflessness, Sacrifice, and Love continues to amaze me. I try to be like her...stand strong, be bold, and steadfast facing death and loss, but I realize...I am not Nelda. God gave Nelda these supernatural gifts through the Holy Spirit, and the gifts he has given uniquely to me I have to use for HIS GLORY.
It is difficult to enumerate one's own gifts as I was raised in the generation that was taught not to brag or focus on "self". We shied away from cameras (or at least pretended to), and we were not to be vain. However, risking straight up VANITY, I am going to attempt to publicly state my own unique gifts. Gifts God gave to me to USE...not to bury and hide.
Side note: When I use to get really down on myself, I would call Jill. Her voice immediately uplifted my spirits, but she would inevitably give me an assignment. The last assignment she gave me, which was more than 4 years ago, was to get old magazines and cut out positive words which I would use to describe myself. I was then to create a collage, and look at it daily. To date, I have not completed that assignment. I started, and I still have some of the clippings in a plastic baggy, but I NEVER FINISHED. When Jill checked my progress, she reprimanded me, although, hysterical laughter erupted as she gave me a tongue lashing for my choices.
Apparently, the only magazines around me upon receiving that assignment were James Avery, Brighton, etc.... and I subconsciously became caught up in the jewelry.
Later, when reviewing my assignment, she asked me to explain how a particular "ring and/or necklace" had ANYTHING TO DO WITH my POSITIVE ATTRIBUTES.
I made a sad attempt to say, "Well, this particular ring is very shiny, and I think I bring light into others' lives."
Jill was not having it! I was told to find regular everyday magazines and redo the assignment. Sad to admit, I never did it, and I regret the fact that I will NEVER be able to physically turn it in completed. In reality, I know that was not the purpose.
I write about that incident with self-deprecating humor, but it was a life lesson. Putting IMPORTANT things off till it is too late can leave a person with a mountain of pure regret.
I know Jill would not want me to write it off as a "regret" because she still wants me to GET IT DONE!!!!! She knew the Christ overcame death, and she is waiting on the other side for me to reunite with her and hand in my assignment.
In light of that LOOONNNNGGGG side note, I will begin. I believe OUR GOOD AND MERCIFUL GOD has endowed me with the following gifts intended for spreading "The Good News -THE GOSPEL OF TRUTH- to the Ends of the Earth".
I am...
empathic, compassionate, forgiving, sympathetic, joyful, kind, a defender of the defenseless, a good listener, a faithful friend-sister-mother-wife-grand-daughter, daughter, aunt, god-mother, daughter-in-law-cousin-colleague-neighbor-and basically a faithful person. I follow rules (unless they are unjust to others). When defending the defenseless, I do not regard personal consequences. I like seeing others happy. I will forsake my happiness for the happiness of others. I am an encourager. I like to do nice things for others just to brighten their day. I am intelligent, and I use my mind to continuously learn new ideas that may help others. My favorite literature is History, Fictional History, and/or inspirational Biographies or Auto-biographies. I give others "the benefit of the doubt" almost to a fault. I love my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, and I talk to him daily. I am moral and have a conscience regarding right and wrong...I have a hard time seeing gray. I love to laugh and make others laugh. As an educator, my greatest joy was/is in seeing others grow whether it be as a student and/or teacher. I love my husband, my children, and my family unconditionally. I yearn for peace among all peoples. I like civil meaningful debate and discussion that leads to growth; however, I do not like discussions/debates that become yelling matches based on ignorance. I am tolerant and non-discriminatory against other faiths, ethnicities, races, or lifestyles. I believe in my ability to do and/or learn to do anything else another human being can do in order to grow and maintain a level personal independence while at the same time admitting my interdependence on my fellow man, especially my husband, children, and family. I love to sing (even though others say I can't carry a tune...that does not stop me). I always want people around me to feel comfortable, loved, and accepted just as they are. I am spiritual. I try to maintain a healthy diet and exercise routine ("try" is a weighted verb). I fight the urge to "enable" my children and/or loved ones because I know that it ultimately cripples them (easier said than done). I openly express my positive feelings to others...even strangers. I am affectionate with my family and friends. I am willing to admit when I need help. I try to bare any physical burdens without complaint; however, I fall short in this area. I love to learn about the Universe, the complexity of the brain, and cutting edge technology/educational improvements. I love private one-on-one time with my family members. I like playing games as a family or with friends as it creates camaraderie. I do not like being idle...as Sister Damien always told me "idle minds and hands are the devil's play ground".
That is it for now. I thank you Lord for pulling me out of the self-absorbed depression which focused on life losses as opposed to the blessings of today!
Sincerely,
Robyn
My inspiration and origination of this blog, Nelda Sosa is still fighting THE GOOD FIGHT! Nelda's Strength, Faith, Selflessness, Sacrifice, and Love continues to amaze me. I try to be like her...stand strong, be bold, and steadfast facing death and loss, but I realize...I am not Nelda. God gave Nelda these supernatural gifts through the Holy Spirit, and the gifts he has given uniquely to me I have to use for HIS GLORY.
It is difficult to enumerate one's own gifts as I was raised in the generation that was taught not to brag or focus on "self". We shied away from cameras (or at least pretended to), and we were not to be vain. However, risking straight up VANITY, I am going to attempt to publicly state my own unique gifts. Gifts God gave to me to USE...not to bury and hide.
Side note: When I use to get really down on myself, I would call Jill. Her voice immediately uplifted my spirits, but she would inevitably give me an assignment. The last assignment she gave me, which was more than 4 years ago, was to get old magazines and cut out positive words which I would use to describe myself. I was then to create a collage, and look at it daily. To date, I have not completed that assignment. I started, and I still have some of the clippings in a plastic baggy, but I NEVER FINISHED. When Jill checked my progress, she reprimanded me, although, hysterical laughter erupted as she gave me a tongue lashing for my choices.
Apparently, the only magazines around me upon receiving that assignment were James Avery, Brighton, etc.... and I subconsciously became caught up in the jewelry.
Later, when reviewing my assignment, she asked me to explain how a particular "ring and/or necklace" had ANYTHING TO DO WITH my POSITIVE ATTRIBUTES.
I made a sad attempt to say, "Well, this particular ring is very shiny, and I think I bring light into others' lives."
Jill was not having it! I was told to find regular everyday magazines and redo the assignment. Sad to admit, I never did it, and I regret the fact that I will NEVER be able to physically turn it in completed. In reality, I know that was not the purpose.
I write about that incident with self-deprecating humor, but it was a life lesson. Putting IMPORTANT things off till it is too late can leave a person with a mountain of pure regret.
I know Jill would not want me to write it off as a "regret" because she still wants me to GET IT DONE!!!!! She knew the Christ overcame death, and she is waiting on the other side for me to reunite with her and hand in my assignment.
In light of that LOOONNNNGGGG side note, I will begin. I believe OUR GOOD AND MERCIFUL GOD has endowed me with the following gifts intended for spreading "The Good News -THE GOSPEL OF TRUTH- to the Ends of the Earth".
I am...
empathic, compassionate, forgiving, sympathetic, joyful, kind, a defender of the defenseless, a good listener, a faithful friend-sister-mother-wife-grand-daughter, daughter, aunt, god-mother, daughter-in-law-cousin-colleague-neighbor-and basically a faithful person. I follow rules (unless they are unjust to others). When defending the defenseless, I do not regard personal consequences. I like seeing others happy. I will forsake my happiness for the happiness of others. I am an encourager. I like to do nice things for others just to brighten their day. I am intelligent, and I use my mind to continuously learn new ideas that may help others. My favorite literature is History, Fictional History, and/or inspirational Biographies or Auto-biographies. I give others "the benefit of the doubt" almost to a fault. I love my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, and I talk to him daily. I am moral and have a conscience regarding right and wrong...I have a hard time seeing gray. I love to laugh and make others laugh. As an educator, my greatest joy was/is in seeing others grow whether it be as a student and/or teacher. I love my husband, my children, and my family unconditionally. I yearn for peace among all peoples. I like civil meaningful debate and discussion that leads to growth; however, I do not like discussions/debates that become yelling matches based on ignorance. I am tolerant and non-discriminatory against other faiths, ethnicities, races, or lifestyles. I believe in my ability to do and/or learn to do anything else another human being can do in order to grow and maintain a level personal independence while at the same time admitting my interdependence on my fellow man, especially my husband, children, and family. I love to sing (even though others say I can't carry a tune...that does not stop me). I always want people around me to feel comfortable, loved, and accepted just as they are. I am spiritual. I try to maintain a healthy diet and exercise routine ("try" is a weighted verb). I fight the urge to "enable" my children and/or loved ones because I know that it ultimately cripples them (easier said than done). I openly express my positive feelings to others...even strangers. I am affectionate with my family and friends. I am willing to admit when I need help. I try to bare any physical burdens without complaint; however, I fall short in this area. I love to learn about the Universe, the complexity of the brain, and cutting edge technology/educational improvements. I love private one-on-one time with my family members. I like playing games as a family or with friends as it creates camaraderie. I do not like being idle...as Sister Damien always told me "idle minds and hands are the devil's play ground".
That is it for now. I thank you Lord for pulling me out of the self-absorbed depression which focused on life losses as opposed to the blessings of today!
Sincerely,
Robyn
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